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admit even to myself how very sorry I was for things I had said to him.
Forget my ever telling him I felt I had not treated him with respect. I was too busy pointing out all the things I thought he had done wrong to me!
This has perhaps been one of the most wonderful parts of our new relationship. I truly feel sorry for the times I do not treat my husband the way he deserves to be treated. When I tell him I am sorry, I feel it. The first time I really felt so very sorry for the way I had treated him was after one of my early spankings. What a relief to be able to tell him I was sorry and wanted to treat him with more respect. Finally I had the necessary trust to do so. I felt so warm, so satisfied and so loved after this apology to him.
This new relationship has made us both so much closer to one another and has made us both free from so many things that were keeping us from being happy.
I am so appreciative to Sarah for bringing this to our attention. Even though I'm appalled by her lover laughing over her "screams of agony," and the needle through the skin reference, I am extremely impressed with Polly's ability to describe her life and articulate her choices. Whenever I was tempted to dismiss her experience because of my squeamishness over what she was saying, I couldn't, because a) I wanted to hear her, and b) we must not forget that those of us who are *even just a little bit* "different" in what we want romantically/ erotically/ sexually are, in truth, as likely to be oppressed or repressed as those living out the more extreme examples of what is discussed here.
Thanks so much, Sarah, and my thanks to Polly for sharing herself so deeply.
SA
by SA on 2005 Feb 17 - 16:43 | reply to this comment
I was stunned
I was stunned at the end of this piece. And I was stunned because this woman is so obviously highly intelligent. The only part I got squeamish about was the blood trickling down the leg.......What is so impressive about this is how she understands herself and decided to live life her way. I applaud her. It takes courage to be out of the norm even a little bit and her choices are way out of the norm. Its like there is no disconnect for her between fantasy and real life. Frankly, happiness is so hard to find and quality people are so hard to find and she has all of that while living her way. She is one of the lucky ones. My desires are so much less intense and yet I don't do much about them except fantasize. This was just fascinating and will make me think. And Polly, I really hope you find some good friends b/c you sound pretty neat. Tatiana
by a Taken In Hand reader on 2005 Feb 18 - 05:25 | reply to this comment